I'll Sit and Smile

When I see you passing by
I'll think of memories and dreams
Your beautiful smile
The shine in your eyes
I'll see you and I'll wonder
Why it didn't work
Did I drown you with devotion
Scare you with my love
Or did you just decide
To turn around and run
I'm going to smile
Maybe wave and say hello
Then I'll take my beer
I'll toast you
And turn and walk away
You will see the pain in my eyes
The questions on my mind
But all around will see my smile
Like one I haven't seen
In a long while
I'll tell you that I'm fine
I don't ever think of you
Then when you're gone
I'll begin to cry
Some will wonder why
I'll say I am remembering a death
One that broke my heart
They'll see my shiny dog tags
I won't have to say a word
They'll think it was a death in battle
Though right they may be
It was the battlefield of love
Not one out in a field
They'll leave me be
I'll sit and drink
And still I'll cry for you
You'll never know
Though you see
What kind of heartache you are to me
I give my life to others
I take it all so lightly
My heart I keep
Locked and safe
Few will ever hold it
All because of times like this
And those who know not
How to handle it
Every time I let it go
To try to love and hope
It is broken and the pieces never really heal
So I will sit there with my beer
Laugh and smile and be ok
While my heart is broken
Behind my smile
My tears
They wait to cry