Cost

I have caused pain

I have brought trouble to my land

The decisions I have made have hurt those I love

My actions were my own

Bourne from desires  common and known

I have not lived rightly

Now my sins are made know

I am lucky this time

No life was destroyed

No damage that can't be undone

A temporary plague of trouble and dismay

But the effects of my choices

Shall haunt me many a day

There was one that I found honest and true

Not perfect by any standard by perfect for me

A pain in the ass and strong of will

Her heart is scarred and fearful

She fears the past may happen again

But courage she has to try again

A decision made before she was known to me

One that has followed me even to this day

This sin that had nothing to do with her

May be the end of the hope I had with her

I meant her no harm only strength hope and love

All may be lost for the perception of betrayal

I do not blame her for the choice she might make

My sin is my own and the consequence my wage

I take upon me the wage of my sin

I give it away to He whose forgiveness  I pray

My life must chance and His forgiveness  I'll take

But for that of the others, hers I will pray

If I lost my chance of ones heart who is true

I bid you farewell with my heart and my care

I hope you can forgive me and move on to better

I begrudge you not, for my failing was mine

Know that I do not give you up or quit hoping for you

But I am letting you go for if this be my wage

I take it deservingly and the price I will pay.